My Dearest A

My dearest A,

How has it come to this? Our story has started like a wild storm of love and now you are further away than ever.

I wish desperately to go back in time, to feel like I am the only one you love, but alas, that is not possible.

What will we be? How will our story end?

Your heart beats for another, while mine burns from you.

Why did you never tell me? You should have told me! This is so unfair of you. You said you fell for me hard and fast - Where is this feeling now? You knew you loved someone else! Why did you start this story with me? Why did you make me fall in love with you? Why did you make me turn my life upside down, when you knew you were never faithful to me in the first place or - heck - even only mine?

I know the right thing now would be to leave. To go away and let you live your life, to let you be without me, but how can I do that when you are still my air?

I am scared to talk to you about this anymore, in case I continue to ruin our already fragile relationship. Is this the sign that it is really over? That I should give up even if you say that you still love me? You have been cold these days and you say you didn’t even notice.

I have lost you, my love, and you will never understand the pain you have caused me. You have lost a love so pure and innocent, something I have never felt in my life, so unconditional. I have forgiven you so much and yet it was not enough.

I will never be enough.

The right thing to do would be to say goodbye.

Why can’t I do it?