Growing I

Fine Line

a border runs so quietly
so soft it’s hard to see
but crossing can end in agony
the fine line of inspiration
helps reach our destination
awakes beauty, a revelation
while simultaneously
ends in jealousy 
in heaps of desperation
courage and motivation
collide with devastation
provokes guilt and resignation
it is a cycle to be broken
a hard path that must be chosen
I’ll do my best to walk this line
keep my balance make it mine
and face the challenge

Why Don’t You Have a Boyfriend!?

why don’t you have a boyfriend?
you seem incredibly smart
you are creative in your arts
why don’t you have a boyfriend!
you are decently pretty
your remarks delightfully witty
why don’t you have a boyfriend?
your heart is purely precious
you’re global trotting adventurous
So, how come you don’t have a boyfriend!

Please stop asking!



I am happy for you

I want to be happy for you
I want to hug and laugh with you
I know it’s what I owe to you
it is only what is fair to you
so I laugh and smile
to make it worth your while
jump with joy and keep on talking
smile while I continue walking
my head held high
so you can’t hear my heart die
my sad pathetic sigh
my inner soundless cry
because inside I am bleeding
and hate myself for this feeling
of jealousy hate and sadness
emptiness, loneliness and madness
grieving
unbelieving
I am happy for you, truly
but I’m sad for me
and this feeling right now rules me

Friendship Knots

under northern lights
my life shined bright
in friendship days
want to remain
but even if we separate
our friendship, it was intricate
precious and delicate
changed my perspective
and from another angle
I tied friendship knots
I will and can’t untangle