Whats a girl to do

it’s like complicated chess where you try to find the right piece but ends up with an bad one I know I could be wrong but maybe Ezra the right piece and Jace is the wrong one or maybe I’m too blind too see what I’m missing , I’m walking outside for some fresh air it smells like brewing coffee for some reason , I don’t remember making coffee “ it’s probably next door i was 5 blocks from my house when I saw a red car pass by it looked like jace”s car but I couldn’t tell because it was super dark I felt shaken for some reason he must of been passing through I shook myself to make sure I was awake , I went back in the house I went to the bathroom to get ready for bed , I did my skin care for the night washed my face , when I heard a “ loud bang coming from the front door I couldn’t tell who it was because it was raining so the window was foggy from the inside , I opened it and there’s was Jace in his grey pants , black t shirt , his hair was wet and messy he had the sweetest smelling cologne and all he said was “ can I come in “ I was standing there debating if I should let him in , but I did and I offered him a towel “ he looked good tonight I probably shouldn’t say that

so I asked him what brings him over “ and he just stared at me with wholesome eyes I was fidgeting with my hands because it was a little awkward not only was his hair dripping with water but it kinda made his eyes come out more it probably was just me looking to hard , I felt his hands connect with mines I know it wasn’t right but I don’t know at this moment I felt like I should kiss him or should he kiss me , either way something was going to happen it was like a force of gravity pulling me to him but I couldn’t control it , he held my face with such compassion his lips slowly coming towards mines , is this happening or is this a dream he whispered “ I know you’ve been thinking about kissing me “ I just melted with fear because he’s right I have but this couldn’t happen or could it , it feels right but so wrong what about Ezra , he looked at me with those green eyes and I got distracted he was rubbing my face with his soft gentle hands , he was staring at me but his gaze softened something I’ve never seen before do I know this guy ? he’s so different actually capable of loving someone without hurting them “ all I wanted to do in that moment was kiss him and I did “ it was wrong I know but it was something I wanted since we were best friends, I wanted to be the girl he would change his player ways for I wanted to be the girl he could love unconditionally and always without feeling like it’s a burden to him