it’s getting bad again isn’t it?
i always notice it when i start picking at the skin on my fingers again
when i can’t sleep at night
stop answering to peoples texts
when i forget to eat and feel a knot in my stomach after every thought about the meal that comes next
i can’t sit still anymore, but at the same time i’m constantly exhausted
physically and mentally
there’s nothing anymore that feels important
i stop reaching out because I don’t want to bring others down
it’s that time again
i notice it now
i know i need to start picking myself back up from the ground.