15 Kiss Me Once, Kiss Me Twice

It was the second time I was at your apartment, my actual home. You’d invited me over because you’d said you’d want to spend time with me, and I’d told you we could watch the first movie of the “Twilight Saga”. You were making jasmine tea for me, and I was watching you from behind.
While putting the tea on the table in front of us, I just kept admiring you as much as possible. “Are you sure you want to watch this movie with me? We could watch something else or do something else. I don’t care as long as we’re together. Or I could leave if you want me to”, I said.
„Excuse me? I’m here right now because I chose to be with you“, you told me while looking into my eyes so directly that I blushed and my face turned even more red than a tomato. I couldn’t catch my breath again.
While smiling at my reaction, you continued moving your soft lips. “And why would I ever want you to leave, my princess?”
“I don’t know. Maybe because I’m annoying you and getting on your nerves because I act weirdly and literally can’t stop staring at you.”
What if I really annoyed you? I was so scared. Your opinion about me mattered to me.
“Why do you think of yourself like that? You’re telling yourself the biggest lies. It breaks my heart. I wish you could see yourself from my point of view. Okay, here me out…”
You gently stroked my left cheek before continuing. “You’re the only one I want to see next to me the entire time. My only love. The only one who makes me feel something out of my control, something magical. I love you so so so much. I look at you and see the most beautiful human. I want to see you all the time. You always believe that I don’t love you back, but like you always say, nobody has ever loved somebody the way I love you. You’re an angel who makes me the happiest man. I can’t believe that you’re mine. So don’t you ever question my love for you again. I’m in heaven when you look at me, you could never be annoying.”
I was speechless. What if this was just a dream and not my dream becoming reality? I touched your face with my right hand and caressed you gently with my fingertips. I felt my entire body trembling because of how nervous I was. I guessed this would never change – the excitement I had while feeling your presence would always be my weakness. Why were you giving me this smile of yours? What had I done to deserve you? Your beauty was and would always be unmatched.
Both of us weren’t moving and I could hear my heartbeat. I felt my heart jumping out of my chest, and all the feelings I’d had for you for years added up, so I gave in. I didn’t have to hide my feelings anymore. Slowly, I moved my head towards yours and didn’t take my eyes off you. You weren’t moving. For the first time, I could feel your breath on me. I could see myself in the reflection of your brown eyes. You seemed to be nervous too, but why? Why would I ever make you nervous?
You were suddenly moving closer to me and our nose tips touched. “Am I allowed to kiss you, my princess?“ you whispered.
I couldn’t move and I was sure you could hear my heartbeat, it was painfully embarrassing how much of an impact you had on me. The moment I smiled, you put your hands around me and kissed me. And I kissed you. Passionately, lovingly, unforgettably, desperately. I’d never stop kissing you. I’d never stop loving you. How could I?