16 (english version)

How does an exciting life feel? Actually, I am not really sure if I know that. My life always used to have the same rhythm all 16 years I have spent on this earth. I always used to think that I am a really happy person, but I just got the thought that this may not be true. Cause I don’t know if what I feel is happiness from all of my heart. Could be, but it doesn’t have to be. At least I know that I have always been a satisfied or regular happy person. Don’t get me wrong, an okidoki life is fine for me and right now, when I am looking to Austria’s east, I am also really happy about my situation. But this year, this 17th year showed me so much more. This year I felt more than I probably felt all 15 years before. Or at least this is how I wanna remember it. This year I made hard decisions, learnt new things, found out so many things I didn’t know about myself, for example, what I like and dislike. This year I felt true happiness and heartbreaking loneliness at the same time. I felt pressure and I felt pain when I found out how people betrayed me behind my back. I was at the bottom of life, probably had the worst days of my “until now” life and had the feeling of running out of breath when it comes to special topics. But I also found true friends, or at least I found out how much I need them and how much I appreciate them. I began to feel freer than ever before and always gave 100 percent. Even if this year was way more normal than it may sound in the text, I learned so much this year. And even if I had struggles sometimes, I wouldn’t wanna change something of my 17th year. I am going to remember the best and worst moments and keep them up as memories. I am gonna miss it, this year. But a new era is going to start and I am ready for it. Thank you, my dear 16.

( sorry I am not from an English-speaking country, so please don’t mind my mistakes)