2014 me

Blue

Why do I feel so blue
When everything around me lives so true
The tears they come
Makes no sense
A sense of dread
Crying again

I feel like I don’t have the right to feel sad
As all that surrounds me isn’t the slightest bit bad
The bad can also just be within
It that such a sin?
I’m lost

Why can’t I look up at this bright sky?
See all the wonders that live in my life
Full of inebriating thoughts
What’s missing
What’s existing
Is it true?
I stop myself
Crying again.

Take a deep breath
They said
Clear your mind!
But how can I clear a mind full of explosive mines?
I don’t know where they lie
I step without caution then
BOOM
It’s exhausting

I want to feel fine
To look outside and see my life
And when im low,
I again will be high
This demon that’s eating my mind needs a beating
Life is fleeting and I need control
I’m in control

I stop crying

Perve

Good lookers all around
Ten a penny
Two a pound
Younger than some
With eyes that look through
Age is a sum
It won’t define me or you
Full of life
With skin that gleams
Looking good
Might not be what it seems
But hey ho
Of course I’ll observe
Because what it comes down too is
I’m just a perve