8 Sunrise

I was in front of the barricade which was directly next to the stage you were going to stand on. I managed to be within the first ten fans entering the concert arena. And to be honest, I still couldn’t believe I was actually there. I was feeling so many emotions at once. Love, excitement, nervousness, fear, hope. The moment I’d been waiting for arrived. Insane, right? The moment that would change my future. It’d decide everything. Whether everything I’d done was worth it or not, whether I’d be happy or not, whether I’d be able to live or not. Whether it would be you and me, or not. It was such a scary thought. What if nothing would go by plan and my whole life would get ruined? I was so scared. But I wasn’t going to think about this. I was just going to focus on the excitement and love I felt. I was going to record you on my most beautiful moment in my life. I was so nervous. My heart had never beaten this fast before, I felt like I was going insane. I couldn’t wait to give you the ring. I was at the front, so I hoped you’d see me. You’d have to. Please.

 Finally – you were coming on stage. You just came in front of my eyes. For the first time. I was screaming my lungs out. I was crying. I felt like I was going to faint or die, I didn’t know. How were you real? How was I so lucky to see you with my own eyes? You were so beautiful that I was scared. What if you’d disappear? You were shining more than anything else, it’d been like this for eternity. You were the brightest star in my universe. Your face and body were perfect. And the suit you were wearing that night. Oh, the man you were.
“Hello everyone! Let’s have some fun tonight! I love you!”
Your voice. Your beautiful voice I’d heard for more than a million times. But it was billions of times more beautiful than I’d ever imagined. You started to sing and I was convinced I was in heaven. All of this seemed like a dream. I was scared I’d lose you. I loved you so much. I wouldn’t be able to handle your disappearance.

While I was singing, actually screaming, along, I waved at you. You were so near. Your eyes were looking through the crowd and landed on me. I stopped screaming. My heart started exploding. You were still looking at me, I was still looking at you. In this huge room, there was only you. And me. Time stood still while we were looking at each other for the first time in our existence. And I fell in love with you all over again. It felt like love at first sight. Did you feel the same? I didn’t know how to act while you were looking at me. Why me? Your eyes met mine for a few long seconds. I couldn’t help myself but smile at you, as I wanted you to feel the unreal, endless amount of love I had for you. You were smiling back. Your lips were forming your soft, shy, genuine smile. And I was so in love with you that no words could ever be enough for my feelings.

Whenever you started to look at your other admirers and danced all over the stage, you somehow always ended up in front of me and looked into my eyes. Was I just making this up and imagining? I truly wanted to believe that the things I was noticing were real, so I decided I was just going to enjoy the moment and your presence. Looking at the person I’d wanted to look at for a long time made me feel something new. The person I loved most and the only one who made me love love, who made me love life. I was happier than ever.