by Magda-lena
I’m sitting in one of the many flower beds in a large garden. The sun is tickling my nose and I look up, and it’s blinding me. A cloud in the bright blue sky passes by and is covering the sun a little. I look around me and what I realize at this moment is that I feel pure happiness inside me. Such an excited feeling in my stomach that this is my life. I see this richly stocked, productive garden with beds and all kinds of vegetables, herbs and trees, with some beautiful blooming flowers in between.
I’m a bit dirty from gardening. Soil sticks under my fingernails and on my hands and under my gloves. But that doesn’t matter. I am happy. About the dirt on my hands. Everything feels so perfect. I hear voices in the background. Someone shouts loudly: “Lunch break… lunch is ready.” I stick the shovel which I’m holding into the soil, which is still a little wet from watering, take off my gloves and place them next to the shovel. Now I stand up and knock some more soil off my legs. I look down at myself and see that my legs are also full of soil. As I walk through the garden towards the kitchen, I look around again and see what great work I’ve done today. I pass the rose bushes. I walk up to a rose and smell it. I inhale the smell and realize as always how much I love it. I pick a few leaves for the salad from a few roses here and there and walk to the kitchen. Just before I arrive there, I stop for a moment.
I take a deep breath. I only now realize that there are some tears in my eyes. I also realize that I’ve got goose bumps. I close my eyes for a moment, take another deep breath and feel inside myself.
Yes, I am at home here. I have found myself, with the right people, at the right time, in the right place. Yes, it’s a clichĂ©. But it’s my life and it’s so beautiful.
For my future self.
© Magda-lena 2024-03-23