by Emmimi
I regret how blind I was nearby you and all the scenarios I made up in my mind, but it gets better with every day I’m forgetting you – I promise
No one is perfect, but I really thought we were. At least I thought we were the closest to perfect you can be. We completed each other like the characters in the movies, like the prince and the princess in the fairytales we read as kids. So many couples stay together – why won’t we? And what if I was just imagining it all, looking over our flaws like they didn’t exist. Pretending everything was okay between us. It hurt too much to think that we weren’t a match, so I started to flee into my own imagination. Because if we really were perfect, my heart wouldn’t be bleeding, and I wouldn’t be bleeding every time I catch myself missing you. From time to time I think I’m over you, but then you remind me that you exist. If we really were perfect it wouldn’t have ended, right? We wouldn’t be history. Maybe “perfect” will come to both of us soon, and all I can do is hope for the best.
How sorry I am for everyone who will never know you the way I did. How sorry I am for everyone who cannot be with you. And I feel sorry for everyone whose love won’t be returned.
They say love at first sight is a real thing and I do think it’s true. Because the first time I noticed you, I immediately knew that there is something between us. Back then I didn’t exactly know what it was, but it felt different from what I was used to. We could have stayed friends, but we chose not to, and now this is what we got from it.
Maybe we end up together and happy after all. After you told me you weren’t ready, and after I almost lost myself on the way. And even if we don’t: I hope you find someone who loves you unconditionally. Now you, the reader, might argue that at this point we’re only kids and I can not predict the future, but as people like to say: dream big. Why shouldn’t we start to dream big when it comes to relationships? If you read this and feel the way I do, keep in mind that you should never care about people that are not good for you. But always keep on believing, please.
Because without believing, what’s the point in trying?
© Emmimi 2023-06-14