Chapter 1

I should end it.

That was the First thought that came to my mind.

I feel empty.

That was something I felt often.

Most of the time I sit in my room and think about what I should do, and in the end I’m still going to end up staring at my phone for hours feeling bad about not doing something productive. In my head I see all the possibilities I would have if I would just start doing what I want to. But as we all know that isn’t always the easiest thing. It’s hard to start something when you don’t know if it is going to have an impact on your life. If you are an over archiver you don’t want to fail, so you just never start. If you think that it isn’t going to make a difference anyway, why trying?

All those questions are often called overthinking, which in a way is true. You think about a situation more than you need to and should and hold yourself back with it. So when someone tells you they are overthinking everything they are just saying they’re afraid.

• Afraid of things that will happen eventually.
• Afraid of what comes next.
• Afraid of what other people will think about them.
• Afraid of letting an important person down.
• Afraid of not fulfilling their full potential.

The tings that are listed above are the things that first came to my mind when I think about what I’m afraid of. And I didn’t even think about it long because they are always there.

In my Head. In my mind.