Chapter 5: Goodbyes

It was quite a dark alley, indeed
“Don’t go”, I still hear you whispering
You were gently touching my arm
I could feel the tip of your nose
Against my forehead
Skin on skin
And for one moment, I was tempted
Tempted by you and your thousand melodies
The melodies you sing every minute,
Every second of your existence
But the dark always gets me
It always wins
Farewell, my beautiful bird














Opening my window
Shaking my bedsheets out
Shaking you out of my mind
Shaking your spirit out
Another goodbye
Another “Sorry”, “Take care” and
“I was really happy for a while”
But I do remember the stars
The glowing in your eyes
Whenever we met
So tell me
Why is this the most hurtful
Of all of your “goodbyes”?

Sitting on a train
A train to Venice
And I am listening
To an angel singing
We are passing the mountains
Soon I’ll be at the sea
And it reminds me
That you could never grasp
What I wanted to be
“I just want to be free”,
I said to you
One too many times
Now I feel like
I am whole
But tell me…?
Why am I still longing for you,
Whenever I look at
The ocean’s blue?

Thoughts on a train
Written in Italy, 2021