Chapter 6

“I know what you are going to say Viviana. I know that this looks like the worst idea ever but don’t you remember when we were kids and all of the other children used to pick on me because of my hair and you’d go in there in front of me and start yelling at them and you’d get into so much trouble because they’d yell back and then suddenly all of us were hitting each other” I laugh with her, one time I took out a strand of hair of one girl and I had to spend a whole day looking at the corner of the room. It was really boring. Willow continues speaking “What i’m trying to say is that what happened to you was so wrong and unfair but maybe this can be a good option, think about it Vivi. Plus there are a lot of hot men” All seriousness was gone and instead there was a flirty grin “look lets go to the mall and forget about everything” she adds while she’s getting up from the sofa, she pulls me up and we go into her room to get ready.

We’re at Starbucks drinking some iced coffee when I start talking “You know what Willow, I think I’m gonna do it. There is nothing to lose, well except my life but who cares” An old lady looks me up and down and goes out of the shop and me and Willow laugh as she says “I love your GenZ humor babe, but are you sure? I know it was my idea but babe you know I’m crazy I don’t want you to get hurt”

“I know what being in the army means Will but it feels right, I don’t know how to explain it but I feel that I can do the both things that I love, being a doctor and fighting, I won’t lie but It kinda sounds promising. I can’t believe I just said that” 

I continue on talking “Anyways Will, you better start explaining to me how you got that boyfriend of yours”

I stare at the ceiling of Willow’s guest room, it was white just like the walls where paintings were laid. Most of the paintings were of landscapes with beautiful blue and purple pink skies but my favorite of all was one that was laid in the living room. It had a wide range of blue colors forming a sea where you could see numerous seagulls flying in the sky that blended in with the sea. It wasn’t a masterpiece but it made me feel serene. Something I haven’t felt in the whole day.

It’s 2 A.M. and I still haven’t fallen asleep. Everytime I close my eyes I hear his laugh, his steps. I smell his gross breath. The feel of his body on top of mine and how the crushed me because he put his whole weight to make it impossible for me to get up. I try to think about other things. I try to think about Willow and how happy she looked when she told me all about her boyfriend. I think about what I was thinking when I said yes about going to the army as a doctor. I had already enrolled myself in so that I couldn’t have the time to get second thoughts. I’m so stupid, why did I do that? Now I’m gonna die.

Lol.