Chapter Fifteen – Living My Life

Dreams usually happen when one is sleeping, not when you’re awake sitting there with the TV watching you. But I was daydreaming about everything that happened and how my parents reacted. It was a month later, and they were both at work now, and I was home alone since the kids were at the Kindergarten. This was still hard to believe.

I took my phone and smiled as I scrolled to Bianca’s name. We had been dating for five months now. We managed to tiptoe still in public because of safety measures and my mom told me not to lock my room when she was there.

I told Bianca to meet up, and she said soon, she was busy with exams. Apparently the second year wasn’t as kind as the first year was on her. But I finally wanted her to know about the talk. So that I wouldn’t have to hide her.

Honest truth was I felt so free after telling my parents. I felt like I could conquer the world. I noticed after ‘coming out’ that the only weight that was on my shoulder was that of them knowing. I didn’t care about anyone else, just them. Now that they loved me still, I felt so happy.

I have to say I was scared a bit to be out for the world because they weren’t scared of getting their hands dirty if they didn’t approve of anything. It just hurt me knowing that people were out there waiting on people to live their lives, so they can kill them.

Who gave them permission? Who gave them the right to take someone’s life?

When the weekend came Bianca drove to my place so that we could go to the mall. We got some burgers and ice cream then headed out to the field to relax and be away from everyone.

“You look happy.” She said and I smiled, “I am. Everything is just so amazing. I feel blessed to be with amazing parents and having an amazing person that I love by my side.”

It went quiet a bit after I said that. I heard her shift, “a person you what?”

“Love Bianca. I love you.” I said, and she opened her mouth but nothing came. I smiled, “and you know I hate the coming out thing, but I told my parents about my sexuality and…”

She screamed cutting me off and jumped on me making me fall in my back. We both laughed, and she quickly stopped and looked at me, “are you okay? What did they say?”

I laughed, “nothing. It went amazing. They were the total opposite of what I expected. I fell so lucky that they were so amazing. I’ve heard terrible stories about coming out.”

She kissed me, “yeah… I know a few too.” Then she put her hands inside my shirt and spread them on my stomach. She deepened the kiss making me sigh, “Bianca…”

She giggled, “I Love you too. I love you so much more Olwethu.”