Deeper meaning

Very tricky game Play of a Narcissist and an Empath. Combination with no Win. 

Again, my brother knew intuitively , he accepted the other guy very fast and, unusually for him, opened himself up to my boyfriend back in time. Shortly after that, he passed away, as he knew he had done everything, he gave me up in the Hands of The One, as I thought, and he can go to find his peace and rest and give me automatically the opportunity to find mine, here on Earth still … 

I moved in with him , with my almost 2-year-old son and his own 15-year-old teenager.

I had a scary feeling about how that would look, as I felt intuitively something was off . 

I got to ignore it, which is unhealed from me again. I am unhealed, ignoring your gut feeling is never good!

I just thought it was my fear of my previous relationship, but no, it was not just that … but I obviously needed to not only have the experience, but also bring myself home. Actually, it was my Brother who brought me back home…to the place where I lived with my Mother as a Teenager , now I am, as a Mother myself. She needed me as I needed her, since both of us only remained to have each other. That is the part where it got through me… My Brother knew that person would be the one as a helper in a way to bring me on the path where I needed to BE, where I will continue my healing journey and start over with babysteps, with my baby by my side. Petar gave me room, gave me space . What a sacrifice that is . What unconditional love . I believe I mentioned it even right in the Beginning, that some Souls who come and follow us through our life until, at some point at least , come reincarnated just for us…

t still hurts and it always will be a spot where I will miss my brother in the physical Realm, but at least I got the understanding why everything happened just the way it did and that there are Soul Contracts and Destiny written in the Stars. 

I will always go through the Memories, sometimes they even come to me and that I understand too . I need to go through it in order to let go , in order to have a smile on my face, because it was a miracle sleeping under the same sky and I know one day we will be meant to stay. 

Some Songs of mine I noticed a couple of days ago, I predicted those . Now, after I lost my brother, I get to see how the puzzles are contemplating into the bigger Picture of my Life . 

Being thankful is the first step . Showing the Gratitude is “Miracle” as a simple Act which brings in the Abundance.