Failed

I tried to delete all the memories in my head. Lying in my bed and feeling so sad.

I removed all the pictures that remind me on us and tried to concentrate on any other stuff.

I cancelled all the plans we had in the past.

Friends tried to build me up – to take my mind off the past.

Going out and having fun is so different when you are not around.

Dancing all night long alone, but still everything feels so monotone.

I try to play dead to not spot your face in my head.

My family booked a holiday for me, to take some days out of my history.

So, I’m lying all alone on the beach, watching the sunrise and eating a peach.

I switched off my phone to be out of reach.

Want to feel completely privately.

They all meant it nicely, but why do I feel then incompletely?

Offensively I want to feel exclusively.

Being here alone don’t keep me away from thinking about you.

I wish I wouldn’t be wasting my thoughts only on you.

Why is it so hard for me to let you go? I so want to be a part of another show.

To get involved with someone else, but how to start with I have no clew.

One day I will make it and leave all this behind.

I’ll meet someone new and maybe fall in love again.

And then I will try to not think about you again.

But forgetting you is so infinitely hard. So I tried to forget you, but I failed.

Will I ever get out of here?

I need to find another atmosphere.