Falling for you (II)

i remember us kissing and me thinking i’ve never felt this way before
and i remember me hoping to feel this way forever
there wasn’t one day i questioned whether you were the one for me
even on days i should have

i never thought falling in love with you would end up in falling out of love with myself

you sitting on my bed
us talking about love
you telling me you don’t know whether to believe in love
was the moment i realized i wanted to be loved by you
when it should have been the moment to save myself

it wasn’t only about convincing you of me
only about convincing you of us
about convincing you of relationships
it was about convincing you of love

lying in grass, looking at the blue sky
falling in love with you and life
could have and should have lasted forever

i was the happiest me when you were happy with me

as days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months i got used to being with you
i got used to us 

we spent almost every day together
never getting tired of each other
always appreciating what we had

and then one day you started kissing me goodbye
when hugs turned into kisses
i knew
i knew i wanted to be with you
and i hoped
i hoped you wanted to be with me, too

you holding my hand in public for the first time
you kissing my forehead for the first time
you taking me on a trip for the first time
are pictures in my head i’ll never forget

your kisses felt like sunlight on a rainy sunday afternoon

we were so happy 
almost forgetting sadness even existed

i cried when i drove home after you told me you weren’t sure but i was the happiest me
when you suddenly changed your mind
till now you never told me what it was that made you change your mind
maybe i should have asked but i just was too happy to be with you

i loved being your girlfriend

lying on the beach
holding your hand
watching one shooting star after another
wishing you would hold my hand forever
is one of the pictures i hold on to

i never stopped falling for you
even when you were nothing new