by Adriana Csik
Alone in the Dark
I’ve not been feeling great of late
so I opt for a dark and lonely space
where my inner demons have come to reside
in a secluded corner inside my mind
they tell me to curl up and disappear
and forget about all which I fear
my mind is too loud, so it’s hard to speak
and find the words that I seek
to say what I need
What I need is not going through this alone
What I need is reassurance, love and support
A friend to listen, not one to fix
but articulating feels like to great a risk
So if you see me silently curled up in bed
know I’m experiencing a little darkness in my head
and all I truly need is a friend to lift me up and help me see
that hope and light can still be found in me
Somebody I used to know
We drifted apart a while back,
unable to see eye to eye or get back on track
our hearts lost, unable to let go
now you’re just somebody that I used to know
The thing is, I used to be able to see through your facade
only to recognize myself
we were each other’s safe space amidst a sea of flames
there was just you and me to tame
You wore a carefree version of yourself
as a mask for the world to see, but I knew
the messy, complicated, albeit authentic version of you
that you unmasked when you felt free
these days I can’t seem to get through
and every time we try to reconcile it is no use
we’re left with a friendship that’s just an excuse
our hearts lost, unable to let go
now I’m just somebody that you used to know.
Perpetual Check
I can’t seem to stop falling apart
and I don’t even know where to start
as I’m trying to untie the knot in my heart
I’m putting my moral beliefs to the test
because thanks to you my love life is a mess
and I’m clearly not the queen in this game of chess
All you do is seduce me to confuse me
to later ignore me
Your indifference keeps hurting me
Stop coming & going as you please
and for once in your life let me be
can’t you see that’s the only way my heart can be freed?
© Adriana Csik 2023-08-08