Great Before

Fear is a strange, powerful feeling. Sometimes the fear overcomes love, happiness, sadness, anger… I tend to close up, to be silent, to fear alone. Being aware of its power and source, I learned to live with my fear. Writing helps. Putting down my thoughts was one of my favourite methods to cross over my anxiety.

Feeling feelings. Fearing the fear. Torturing my soul. Even before anything started. Hm, there is always the question – how do we define the Great After? People are curious about what is happening after life? But what is for me more interesting is the Before, hey, is there a Greate Before?

As someone who doesn’t believe in accidents, the mysteries of the soul’s birth is where all the answers could lie. The SOULution is hiding in the Before. In the space where our spark is created. The phase where we discover the passion, assume the purpose and study about the cruel life on Earth. Amazing how the cruelness is connected with the possibility to feel, taste, sense all in all.

Souls can’t be crushed in the Great Before. That’s what life on Earth is for. Feeling myself is both the most amazing and the most painful thing I can imagine. Two souls meeting can’t be an accident. Why? Simple, because they just recognised each other from the Great Before and searched the whole time. You just feel the emptiness in your soul, the hidden purpose in every move you make. No, no don’t call it subconscious.

The soul’s memory is strong but not clear enough to show the body how to search for the lost friend soul of hers. That’s the moment you decide to move. To change your home. Then you try to meet people. The soul tries to lead you. To help you help her to find her friend from the Great Before. But you are stubborn and you think you know better what you need.

You bury your soul’s urge deep inside. You pretend that you can find your spark, your passion without your soul. You don’t believe in the Great Before, but you hope for the Great After?

And then it hits you!

The magic when two souls recognize each other by vibes, not the human shell appearance. You say the famous statement: It feels like we know each other already, is it? You appreciate feeling your feelings after a long time. You enjoy the touch. Hearing the sound of his voice makes you feel oceans. The warm wave in your chest can only be cooled down by his hug. The chaos in your head is calmed down with a single word. The spark is relaxed. Your soul is in peace. You are in peace with yourself. The mission you took on you in the Great Before is now on the right track of going to be fulfilled.

Cherish your soul. You learned side by side to deal with gravity, with pain. You fought with feeling fear together and the challenge of letting go. You believed.

But, hey V, your soul friend is there! You made it. Let yourself be. You are safe now. Feel feelings.

You are Love? Nice to meet you.