Have I Done My Best?

I do know we all have to

Carry some weight

But how do you somehow

Keep choosing yourself

When all on the inside

Just screams to escape?

I’m floating, I’m falling,

I’m tired of crawling

Day after day after day that I’m here

Just to make sure that

I don’t disappear.

Night after day

I lie down and pray

That all of my thought chains

Would just wash away.

Longing for rest

But have I done my best?

And what about all that I feel

In unconsciousness?

I try to set free

The darkness and see

What tomorrow

Might still have to offer to me.