by Adriana Csik
Healing process
I write to feel deep and experience wholly
to heal myself through every story told boldly
to love myself with each word my pen provides
as I pour my heart and soul into these lines
I write to make sense of each tale I tell
as I release feelings and memories intertwined
to gain clarity and some peace of mind
in the hopes to leave the past behind
I write to give shape to my dreams
to bring them to life with each stroke and line,
my aspirations and ideas immortalized in ink
to remind myself of who I am and how I think
I write so that someday, in the future
I can open the pages to read about
all the moments, fleeting and profound
that shaped me into who I am
to warmly discover how far I’ve come, unbound.
Pick up a pen
From a 26-year-old’s heart and pen
pouring words that will not end
turning pain and laughter into art
hoping to free a troubled heart <3
It’s easy to mistake a mirror for a soulmate
One of the biggest wounds I carry with myself is having mistaken someone who is very similar to me with my soulmate. Like a mirror, he reflected pretty much all of my qualities, values and thoughts and therefore, the mental connection was out-of-this-world. I knew what he was thinking because I was thinking the same. He knew what I was feeling because he was feeling it too. It was crazy and intense, and heartbreaking. We shared our deepest wants and needs, but also our flaws and wounds for which we couldn’t stop the bleed. We projected our hopes and fears until it all blurred and lines became unclear.
It took me years to see that he just wasn’t the one for me, no match in terms of a healthy and fulfilling relationship because as beautiful as the highs were, bright and bold, the lows were like depths, dark and cold. Only by creating distance and working on myself did I understand that although sometimes we may be drawn to people who resemble us, true soulmates are those whom we can trust to support, challenge, and inspire us to grow and become better versions of ourselves. They are the ones who radiate unconditional love, and bring light into our lives, illuminating the darkest corners of our soul with their unwavering presence. They are our true companion of the heart, a bond that transcends time and distance apart.
© Adriana Csik 2023-08-08