Iām sitting here on my bed for the week in Malaga, Spain and Iām asking myself āHow did I get here?ā
I donāt mean that in a sad, angry or frustrated way.
Itās more a question occurring from a restless, pondering and slightly tired place.
Iāve made peace with the fact that I am where I am because of various choices I have made throughout my lifetime.
Lately, however, very little in life seems to be easy or straight forward at all.
I clearly remember a time, not so long ago, when most things in my life just seemed to progress naturally.
I felt like my life had structure, direction, purpose and well… flow.
As I sit writing here, however, I now find myself full of questions that I donāt seem to have an answer to.
* What is my purpose in life?
* What do I desire?
* How can I make my inside world reflect my outside?
* Why do I seem to be stuck in the past more than moving forward right now?
* When exactly did life get so ācomplicatedā?
Etcetera. Etcetera. Etcetera.
I am completely aware of the fact that I am absolutely stuck in my head at the moment.
Itās funny how our brains can act as our best friends on some days and then turn into our worst enemies on others.
Right now, however, I feel like it is neither. It seems to be in a weird in-between space somehow.
Itās like one side of me is shouting from the rooftops saying āYou know what you want! You know who you are! You know what you value!ā
Then a second voice pipes in and contradicts it with āBut look at your life right now. Itās nothing like how you imagined it would beā.
Which is when the questions start up once again:
* How did I get to this place?
* Where is this misalignment coming from?
* Is this situation really as complicated as it feels?
* What can I do to get back to a place of peace?
* What exactly will I do to get back into a liberating flow?
Funnily enough, I actually have an answer for that last question though.
In fact, you are reading these very words now because of it.
You see, much as it may seem like Iām in a bit of a lost and confused space, there is one thing in my mind thatās actually very clear to me.
Sitting around just pondering about life isnāt going to get me anywhere.
However, Iām convinced that exploring history, discovering patterns and learning more about the self can actually create magic.
The kind of magic that can literally change your life.
So my dears, whether you know me or not, I am here to invite you on a journey with me. A journey to creating magic.
This journey will take us across three decades, five continents, thirty plus cultures and countless fascinating memories.
This journey is sure to be filled with moments of joy, sadness, love, confusion, desperation, growth and reinvention.
Itās not one for the faint of heart. Itās not a story for those quick to judge. Thatās why I will ask you here and now…
Are you ready to go on a crazy adventure together?
I know I am.
Ā© RelocationJunkie 2020-09-30