I Found An Angel

For once, I forgot the world could be so silent that I could hear myself breathing those breaths I sometimes take for granted. My ears, which I cover whenever I can.

Sometimes I miss hearing myself, hearing how much I have to say about things, about how great life actually is, about how shitty I still sometimes feel, how great my girlfriend really is, how shitty I sometimes still believe I am, though, in her eyes, I’m the one she loves.

Sadly, I just don’t love myself enough. Sometimes I forget all my best achievements in life, I belittle myself as if I was a piece of dust blown by the wind, frozen by the winter, slowly gone. I forgot how great life is, along with forgetting how great myself is, that I can still see that greatness with my own eyes.

I’m still here, I’m still freaking here. Who would’ve thought after a year that I’m still going to be here writing this, looking back at that time a year ago when life to me was nothingness, where my life was about to be taken for granted, where I needed help to even stay here.

But I’m still here, through and through, I’ve managed more than 356 days long, and I’m so glad I made it, because if I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have seen her, I wouldn’t have been able to see an angel, to feel this angel’s love towards me, to feel her warmth, her good soul surrounding me.

Because then I wouldn’t have met her, somebody that makes me feel beautiful, somebody that thinks I’m wonderful, somebody that makes me believe in it too, somebody that makes me feel so grateful I’m alive and in love.

An angel that I didn’t see coming. I swear, she’ll stay and I will too.

Nobody is perfect, not me, nor her, but together we’re creating a beautiful picture out of those puzzle pieces we have in us. We complete each other.

Knowing her has brought the best in me. Knowing her makes me know myself and more of the world. She makes me believe in good souls and the kindness that there is in this ruthless world.

Her love shows me warmth, her presence makes me feel whole.

I’m not always in my best condition, I have my struggles, and I’m still struggling after all, but her words calm me down like nothing could.

Her voice stops the chaos in my mind, her love reaches out to my heart, her hugs put my broken pieces back together.

It’s strange how much a person can do to someone, but it’s beautiful that it’s her that does it to me for she’s a beautiful one, and I’m glad to have her by my side, in my heart and always in my mind.

She’s the best thing that could happen to me. I’m glad I chose to stay alive because I found an angel in the form of a human, a sweet soul with a good heart and I will be with her as long as it lasts.