Letters of a long forgotten past: chapter 12

Dear Eddy,

I am so sorry for worrying you like that. I am fine. We got attacked at night a few days ago. A lot of the men, as well as myself, were injured after this. I am writing this with only one hand available as my arm is broken or at least sprained. One of my legs is severely injured, but the doctors won’t tell me what’s wrong with it. They told me that it is very important that I tell you about this and write to you. They are worried about my health and think that I might not make it this time. I am positive that I will survive but if I don’t… I love you. I love you so much. You’re the love of my life and in the case that I die, find love again. Don’t stay with the memory of me, you’ll have to love again. None of this is your fault, I love you so, so much.

I’ll write you when I’m better.

Sincerely your loving fiancé, Robby

Dear Robby,

You got injured? Oh my..! Are you ok now? How is your team doing? I don’t know What to say, to ask. You can’t die. Don’t die on me, please. I beg of you, stay alive. I can’t lose you my love. You’re the love of my life too and I’ll love you through a million wars, just please don’t die. The war is harsh here as well, I’m worried. If you’re gone what will I do? Please don’t leave me. I’m all alone without you. I can’t live without you, don’t die. Please, please a million times. I love you so much. I can’t find love ever again if you’re gone. I couldn’t, loving someone else would feel like cheating.

I love you, don’t leave me.

Your future husband, Eddy

Dear Robby,

You haven’t answered me yet. Why? I’m sorry if I seem needy but please answer, it’s been 1,5 months since I wrote the last letter. The war seems to be dying down. Please come back home to me my darling. I won’t accept your death. Please, I love you. The kids at the daycare would love to meet you, they’re doing better now. They’re all pretty skinny but since the war is ending now they’ll be getting more food soon. The children are happier, they laugh again. Do you want to miss that? Why won’t you write me back? Do you hate me? Did you get in trouble? I’m sorry if I am at fault for this.

I love you so so so much.

Yours Eddy