She is the golden sprinkles when the sun hits the rain and turns it into a rainbow
She is every nightmare I ever had,
She is the spring birds outside my window that wake me with their tunes.
She is everything I ever hoped for –
And everything I dreaded.
She is the first bright, green leave on the chestnut tree
She is every drop of paint I spilled on my carpet –
And every teardrop I collected,
She is the melody that lures me to sleep
She is the arms that hold me together
She is the scribbled notes on the crumbled paper that I threw across my room
And the catchy poem I wrote in my English class
She is that Tuesday morning – when she wasn’t there
And she is all the goodbyes we never said.
She is the cry I scream in my pillow after a fight
And the songs I sing enthusiastically in the car,
She is a brilliant mind with a sparkling soul,
She is pain –
And she is hope
She is a flower with pretty thorns
She is teary smiles,
She is broken hearts
And she isn’t mine.
© Lara Pasquier 2023-08-24