Motherhood

How can I possibly put into words how much you mean to me, mom?

You are the first person I got to meet in this world and most definitely the best one. You were always there. The day I said my first word. The day I took my first steps. Or the day I got my heart broken for the first time. You were always there and you still are. You are my biggest fan, my best friend, my taxi driver, my hairdresser, my nurse, my teacher, my adviser and so much more.

I know you didn’t have it easy. We were alone in this world and yet you made me feel like I had more than everything I have ever needed. You were both mom and dad. And you still are. You will always be more than enough for me.

I don’t even know how I deserve you. You are the only person I can be vulnerable to without feeling bad about it. You are the only one that seems to understand me. The only one who knows how to take care of me when I’m feeling down. You know all my favorite things and what truly makes me happy on sad days. You know exactly how to cheer me up and how to make things seem a little less overwhelming.

You are the most amazing person I know. I aspire to be like you. You have been through a lot and it hurts me so deeply when I see you cry, which happens rather rarely. I know you try to hide it, but I know that you have suffered and still do. I know that well because I’m your daughter. And because I’m your daughter, don’t be afraid to tell me how you feel. I too know how to cheer you up, what your favorite things are and what you are passionate about. I am here whenever you need me. I will listen to you and try to give you some advice too. Even if you have a lot more life experience than me.

I know that I can sometimes be really difficult to deal with. But you never made it feel like I am a burden to you. I can’t even count how many times you’ve told me that you love me or how many times you’ve shown me love. You always know exactly what to say.

And I just want you to know that I will try everything I can to pay you back all that you’ve given me, even if that might be impossible. I will strive to make you proud and to care for you like you’ve cared for me. You won’t have to worry about anything. Whatever you wish for, I will bring it to you. You deserve all the happiness and love in the world. And even that wouldn’t be enough. I don’t really know how to express my love for you, because even the word “love” can’t define everything I truly feel for you. Yet it is the only word that seems to include all that goes along with motherhood. A love stronger than the love between the moon and the stars or the sun and the bright blue sky. Stronger than time and stronger than all the weight of the universe.

So I will put all my soul and all my heart in these following words: I love you, mum.