My Last Will For You

And then I wonder about us, about you and me

About our love, about our relationship

My life, my forever

How do I know if you’re happy

How do I know if you’re escaping

How do I know if I make you want to

How do I know if you know that I want you to

Because the door is open

Because you’re still here

Because I’m sick and because you’re kind

Because you want me and because I want you

But how if the world doesn’t want me

But how if I don’t want the world to want me

And I go as far as to say you’re that world

As you’re not out there but you’re in here

And you’re the most alive thing in me as of right now

And as everything fails with me, I want you to succeed

I want to look at you with pride from the sky

I want you to learn life from a being so dead that is me

I want you to take everything I own

Everything I’ll ever have that is you

And bring her to there where I’ve always wanted

To be up there on the hills on our farm overlooking the tiny world

If I were to be gone, I want you to live and live harder than ever for me in my spirit

Because I was once you until life defeated me

Until my sickness got the best of me

But still then, I would love to see you beat me

Because my love is so big, the world can’t take it

And it blinds me which then kills me

But you’re the love I manifested

You’re the life I wanted to have

My love, my only one

Live, hard

Love, deep

For me, yours only