When you’re gone
 I don’t wear my hair up
 I flush the toilet all the way through 
I leave the heat on as hot as I want
I sing as loudly as I desire
When you’re gone
 I think of anyone but you
 I imagine having a man in your bed 
Rolling in the sheets with him
Where you’ve been with her
When you’re gone
 I only make the tea I want
 I’m free of you
 I don’t pick up the hairs in the bathroom
I let my anger go where it wants to
When you’re gone
 I’m perfect just the way I am 
No insecurities
 No regrets
 
I’m free to be who I want to be
Stay away
 ´cause I’m not strong enough
 Not strong enough to always stay away from you 
It’s the least
 the very least you can do. 
© Yaël Brunnert 2024-03-10