One day, I will be part of history

What is love? What is the concept of love? I never really understood it. In this generation the parents mostly only want wealth and want you to marry somebody you don’t love, I never realised how many meanings this expression has, love. Love is a connection of two people, souls that were tight together. Hearts that beat for each other, two heart beats that beat in the same sequence, hearts that desire each other. There are so many things that make love, love. The experience you have with each other, small things like word of affirmation or the smile that lights up on their face when they see you are things that make you feel special even if you often don’t realise it, the small things matter. I never knew what true love was until you gave me a meaning to every letter in this word. I wanna life like tomorrow doesn’t matter like the earth is falling apart this night, without consequences and with freedom, total freedom. I just want to live like I’ve never lived before. Just living. But I’m the future of my country, the future of my people, I have rules that I have to follow and requirements I have to go after. It’s like a prison I can’t escape from, a prison that will follow me until the day that I will perish. I’m getting parted from you on this day in history, my dear true love. I have to marry, for power and wealth that’s the sad part of my story. I didn’t get to love you till my last breath. I’m marrying the man that my parents picked, that man that is good for our status the man whose face I don’t even know because that was the deal from the mask ball, I won’t get to see his face until the day we will be engaged. But your eyes, I’ll never forget them, those precious ocean blue eyes. Worlds changed when our eyes met. I looked in the mirror while my maid Rosetta helped me to get on the corset for my wedding dress. My eyes filled with sadness I feel a tear rolling down my cheeks. Why was it so unfair? I never wished more to be born in another generation than at this day, at this very moment. I put my jewerly on and then, Rosetta looked at my dejected look and said shortly “I have to get something, please wait.” I nodded trying not to show any emotions but it was just so difficult. As Rosetta left, I let myself fall into a chair which is standing right behind me. I leant back and tried to calm myself down, I’ll never get to see Magnus again, the one that made me feel like I’m worth all the stars in the sky. I quivered my lips and I felt a tightness in the chest, sadness crushed me with the overwhelming force of a tidal wave, and I drowned in its embrace. It’s a hole that cannot be filled. Out of nowhere the door gets torn open ,I busted out of my bubble. I heard someone shouting ,,Lillet! Quick!”