by c31rig
April 3; 5:04 pm:
It’s getting worse. Even though it’s just my second day here it already feels like I’m stuck here since my birth. Absurd how 48 hours can feel like several years. Soon I’ll turn 17. I wonder what they will gift me… I mean I don’t expect anything from my mom. Yesterday she called, only to tell me that she’s done with me since I “lost control over myself and my life”. Sarah is the only one left…except for the doctors here. But they’re not much of a help. On our appointments, they never seem to say a word. How does that help me?! I hate it here. Not just this place. THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD! Why…why can’t I just disappear?!
6:19 pm:
Disappearing would be great but not for Sarah. Her Dad abuses her constantly, and she’s too frightened to stand up against him in any way. She always clings to me. I don’t want her to be lost and forgotten when I’m gone, so that is not an option. However, I urgently want to get away at least from here.
April 5; 11:00 am:
Dear Mathew. I am Doctor Sherwood, currently in charge of you. I now write here as a way to communicate with you, as well as keep track of your mental development. I know it’s hard for you being miles away from your family and friends. I will try to be there for you as well as I can. However, it is difficult for me to help you if you decide to remain silent in our therapy sessions. I surely understand how you may currently feel but not talking to anyone is not a good way to process the recent incidents. Therefore, I ask you to actively take part in our next meeting. Greetings, dr. Sherwood
April 6; 11:20 am:
Hello dr. Sherwood. I am sorry for not speaking to you or your colleagues. I understand your concern since that’s what you get paid for, but I prefer to deal with my problems on my own. I’m used to it and always did so. Furthermore, I want you to know that I find it not very appropriate to use your client’s diary to get to know them more. I would like you to stop reading my entries since they contains very private things I don’t want to be read by others. Please respect my personal space. Thank you. -Mathew
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