Random Chats

I cannot call you or text you ,

because i know that you are going to talk about the weather or a very random topic from the internet .

and thats okay, but it is not my kind of Conversations

i really want to know how you are doing.

That’s why when i asked ” how are you doing?”

I don’t want you to say that ohh “i am okay, i am amazing, i am not okay, “

I want you to tell me HOW ARE YOU DOING? REALLY?

How do you feel, what did you do, how does it feel to be who you are ? What do you believe in ? What amazes you ? Did you make your bed today or not ? What are the litle things you dream about ? What’s that weird thing you are afraid of people finding out about ? What are your deadlines in life , how is work and really ?

Give me the details, the little details of how you are doing.

the question is, can you ?

Can you tell me honestly how you are doing, how you feel without filtering it ?

Can you be honest with me and tell me about the little conversations you have in your mind and heart ?

I need to feel what you feel to connect with you, I need to be in your shoes to be able to honestly empathise or jubilate with you

Unless you don’t want me to, which is okay . If you give me only half of the information i might not be able to be fully there for you the way you expect me to . That’s how it works with everything in life . Input equals output.

You call me that you are not okay or you us to celebrate, but you ain’t giving me the whole story .

Dont you think for us to be in sync with what is going on i need to be fully informed ? Because sad or happy occasions doesn’t define how you feel . I have heard of weddings where the bride wept and funerals where the deceased is relieved from constant pain.

Tell me how I can be there for you if you don’t fully trust me enough to be open with me ? And most importantly, why are you talking to me and it’s clear that you actually don’t trust me ?

I enjoy deep conversations where we are both in tune with each other and no one is trying to sound brilliant, where you are fully open about who you are and the little things that makes you twirl .

It’s okay that if am not your go to person, and we can be acquaintances , meet and have fun or do activities together, but when it comes to conversing , its either i am your person or i am not. Only say it, when you mean it .