Reality has me back

In sunlight I hate you

In moonlight I dream of you

The day is filled with moving on

The night is stained with falling back

In brightness I know what I want

In darkness it’s you that I haunt

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I always knew the ending and saw it coming

But I closed my eyes and it hit me like a tsunami

Blindly drowning in the mess of us

Until time and healing swept me ashore

I heard the warnings loud and clear

But I pressed my hands on my ears and didn’t hear the fire of the gun

Brokenheartedly I died in the grave of our affair

Until time and healing brought me back to fie

I felt the bittersweet thorns of false love grow in me

But I tricked myself into thinking I was fine

Filled with pain I fell into a coma of existing in your game

Until time and healing woke me up to love myself

They all told me before, trying to talk me out of it

But I didn’t listen, lied and swore I was fine

In denial and lost in delusions I lost sight of what’s real

Until reality got me back to hold me and to keep me