the essence of life

Merle Teschner

by Merle Teschner

Story

Some say love is the essence of life, it’s our life’s purpose to find love. Maybe that’s true. Maybe it’s not – that falls under the many things I have not figured out yet. One thing I do know is that I love dramatising crushes. So, naturally, you are going to find texts here that will make you think I found or lost ´the one´ when actually I just saw someone beautiful on the bus or a person I passed by on the street was smiling at me a little wider than expected.

The cliff

I feel like I’m falling again

falling without anything to catch me when I crash

Falling without anything to open my eyes and making me realise

what’s true and what’s not.

I stumbled into you

And without me realising, you managed to push me

Just a blink ago I was crawling up the walls of the cliff I fell off so long ago

And now I’m in free fall…………………Again

I stumbled into you and now I’m falling

And this fall is not like the one before. This fall is worse.

It’s worse because there’s no soft pillow that can catch me at the end.

It’s worse because I’m falling alone, and I can’t see you next to me.

You pushed me down this cliff while standing up straight.

Standing securely at the edge, gazing into the horizon with confidence and trust

While I’m falling

With a beating heart, a confused mind and a delusional sense of reality

I was so safe at the walls of the cliff I was climbing before.

I knew them – I’d been there for years – I miss them now.

They were painful but familiar. Nothing surprised me there.

But now I’m more surprised than ever

That push of yours came out of nowhere.

I saw you before, and you were so peaceful and kind.

And then WOSHHH

Here I am falling and wondering how to stop just to start another painful climb up this damn fucking cliff.

© Merle Teschner 2024-08-27

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