by OKovas
When I look back at my life, I understand that I always had to overcome different difficulties, barriers, and fears. I had to struggle with my insurance every day.🤷♀️
I grew up in a loving, intelligent family where the question of education was in the first place. Yes, I was a smart girl. But, I had a lot of questions about my appearance. I thought that I was not beautiful. I tried to be like a Princess when I was a schoolgirl, but I felt like a Cinderella. In high school, I watched the series ‘Angelique” and I wanted to be like Michele Mercier.😊
I dreamed about young boys who were lying in piles at my feet. Stupid thing, right? Thank God, later I realized that I didn’t need to look like someone else because I was already a pretty, young, educated, purposeful young girl. I was already unique, even though I had a lot of drawbacks. And I could be gorgeous anywhere.
Then was my first test of the spirit. It was my first examination when I had just graduated from school. I tried to enter a pharmaceutical university, but I failed my Biology exam. I had been crying all day and I couldn’t have stopped. I asked myself, “How come I could fail my exam? I am a good girl who was graded only with high marks at school, and I was not able to pass this Biology exam! Ahhh! What will my classmates think of me? What a shame!”😢
Now I understand why I failed my exam then. I had not prepared for the exam at all. I had been reading different kinds of books. One of them was “The Origin of Species” by Charles Darwin. For what? I had been convinced that by reading these books I could become smarter. I didn’t want to study the basics of Biology, rules, or do tests. I had thought Charles Darwin would help me. Funny, huh?
Coming back to my struggles, I remember that kicking myself lasted for two weeks. Then, wiping away tears, I applied to a medical college and enrolled in a pharmaceutical course. These were the first steps in my life that have led to me being who I am now; confident and self-sufficient!
© OKovas 2024-10-31