the moon is beautiful tonight

The birds were my only company tonight

I could feel your presence even though you weren’t in sight

The wind touched your hair and the moon lit up your skin

I cry more than I breathe, so my heart’s learned how to swim

Do you know I will faint if you ever touch my face

Only in your arms, my heart picks up the pace

I have to convince myself that the butterflies are lying

Every day I give in one last time is the day I’m slowly dying

And as we look up to the sky I tell you that I thought we were done

But I never let you go, you were never really gone

Falling for myself this time didn’t help me out of my denial

I am still getting my wedding dress red as I walk down the aisle

Walking towards you with my open wrists and throat

Don’t check on me but read my last handwritten note

It’s getting so cold outside and my body starts shaking

My eyes are fighting a battle while my poor heart is aching

“I wish you were dead”, I tell you “I’m sorry, but it’s the truth”

My dad destroyed my childhood and you abused my youth

I wish you were never born, and I wish I wasn’t either

What kind of book are we, and who is the reader?

My lungs burn like fire and my skin becomes snow

And now I’m sitting here denying what I already know

I will never lose my love for you, but this has to be a goodbye

And if you were really here I’d tell you the moon is beautiful tonight