Staying today will be the pain of tomorrow
Just saying that feels strange
But no matter whose happiness I borrow
Some things will never change
I’d try to break the pattern
Try to trade in my name
But I always fail to change the fact
That it will always stay the same
And I could lie and confess
My secret love for the pain
But one can never use happiness
To conceal a rotting stain
It’s like a raging demon
That has grown inside of me
Telling me to listen
Become the person I am meant to be
Entertaining the people in my life
Friends but also not
Those who chose to stay
But only for the plot
Staying for my breaking point
The one big event
The day on which I end it all
And go back to from where i was sent
© Selima Chowdhury 2023-02-14