by Ioana Iliu
~Unconsciously our city~
I have to admit I catch myself thinking about you subconsciously.
Whenever I walk past your bus station I catch my eyes scanning the crowd looking for you…
Subconsciously I still get my morning coffee from your favourite coffee shop in our city.
Yes our city, that I hate because of you.
Because I subconsciously connect every place with one of our memories that plays like loops in my head.
~Our spot~
It’s the only place where I still feel your presence, smell your fragrance and feel your hand on my cheek.
I wanted to stop coming, but the place is like cigarettes. The more I go there, the less I can stop.
The desire to see you back in my life is poisonous because I know you will never make me smile again.
We’ll never share music again, and we’ll never talk at our spot for hours until it gets dark.
~Life loop~
Do you know those shows that are getting harder and harder to watch, always the same plot, the same characters, and you can’t watch it any more?
This is how life feels right now.
Just desperately waiting for a new season with new characters, new storylines, new places
and new eyes to fall in love with.

© Ioana Iliu 2023-09-01