V.

Don’t feed me with your lies

my tongue is already bleeding

don’t shut your guilty eyes

the truth is what i am seeing

dispraising all the rules

you choose the darlings of the hour

no one else has any clues

but the end taste will be sour

don’t be afraid of me but fear the future

i am unimportant and miniature

only the fate will be your butcher

***

I am summoning my creative self

insisting that she should use the words in my head

to write something inspiring and beautiful

to shine and to spread positive messages

but my creative self is avoiding me

hiding in the undergrounds of my soul

shielding from the arrows of my

stupidity

mediocrity

uncertainty

anxiety

***

I will never abandon myself.

No matter how wrong I am.

I will never cheat on myself.

No matter how seductive I am.

I will never let myself down.

No matter how unacceptable I am.

I will never pity myself.

No matter how unsolvable the situation is.