I am sorry that the only time I feel
Is when I have vodka burning my throat
And blood spilling through my skin
I cried when you left
But for you
My tears were as meaningless
As the moments we shared
I am a lover of freedom
And the thoughts of us together
Liberates me more than anything
My mom confuses my lack of love for myself
For lack of love for her
To her love is shown through actions
But my movements scream through oceans
The lies that out of my mouth fly
Feel so good against my skin
Like silk across my lips
Can we please fall asleep tonight?
Count the stars and watch the night
Sadness consumes my being
But it’s okay
Well it isn’t
‘Cause I don’t like feeling
Can you hear that?
That’s the silence of the words left unsaid
And I am glad for our friendship
I just wish we had more time
And when you touch me
You surprise me
For, once a fool
Now a lover
I need to take cover
You are my sun
I revolve around you
I get caught in your pull
And let myself burn
One of many
Yet cared by none
Grieve and remember
A ghost of a stranger
© Irina Sheychenko 2023-08-27