Your name hurts

I say I’m fine; I say I’m glad it’s over,

I say I’m happy, because now I can spend my energy on more important things,

I say I’m relieved, something felt off from the start.

But every day I wake up, and you’re the first thought in my head,

Every time your city’s mentioned, my thoughts drift to you,

Every post I share, I check if you’ve seen it,

Every song I listen to, it becomes about you,

Every poem I read, it’s written about you,

And so in everything I do, my mind revolves around you.

And it hurts. Everything hurts: your face, your smile, your  voice, your songs, your interests, and your name.

Your name hurts, a constant ache I can’t escape,

Like an echo in my heart, it lingers, it remains,

I try to forget, but it’s etched upon my soul,

A bittersweet reminder that won’t release its hold.

In crowded streets, I see a glimpse of you,

In bustling cafes, I swear I hear your laughter too,

The memories we shared, they haunt my mind, when it felt like our fates intertwined. 

When we lied on the floor and our gazes met, when we danced like no one was watching.

I’ll take each day as it comes, hold on tight,

Hope that someday, my heart will see the light,

For now, I’ll carry the weight of this bane,

But know, your name will forever remain.